From a letter I sent to my BF, who was wondering why I didn't write him last night before going to bed...
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Something went wrong and I overloaded last night, I think. I got off the phone and went into full autistic shutdown. My body hurt all over, I couldn't stop moving, I couldn't think enough to know what was wrong... It took 600 Neurontin spaced out over a few hours to finally put me to sleep around dawn. I'm pretty much tired out right now, very sore (lack of sleep = neurological pain), spaced out (semi-shutdown)... I feel very upset with myself for letting this happen, I know better than to do that to myself, however it is I did it...