Just had another evening of trying to convince myself to write/chat, but not being able to. I felt really good after my workout at the fitness center, and was all ready to embrace the world eagerly, then I saw a rant by a neurobigot. Instant mood crash. Bah! I didn't have the energy to respond, and even if I did, he was obviously the sort of person that wouldn't listen.

I sat for quite a while, not getting anything done, feeling the energy from earlier drain out into an emotional lethargy. Then, somewhat out of desperation as I do have things that need to finally be dealt with, I decided to start out just by using Agendus to create a detailed To Do list, with multiple colors, priorities, and icons. *grin* That was surprisingly rewarding, so I did expanded to less-necessary things like sending mail to each individual friend and washing my car. Colored text and icons everywhere, whoo! *grin*

Lately I've been alternating between feeling totally overwhelmed at the work I need to get done and feeling intensely bored because I can't figure out what to do. My theory is that if I have this list to stick with, I'll be far more likely to know what to do when I have energy and thus do it. That in turn will allow me to write or chat with online friends without the feeling that I'm doing something horrible by not devoting myself to the other things I've been failing to take care of. Then, because I'll have something to be enthusiastic about, I'll have more energy, and in turn that will mean getting more done.

Let's hope my guess is right. :-)