Zoned, Tired, Overloaded

Ugh... I haven't been sleeping well, and have had a lot on my mind, so today was pretty much a complete waste. I've been having to take a few Neurontin just to shut my mind up enough to sleep each night, and even then, it's not much better than a doze. :-( I wasn't even sure exactly which day of the week we were on.

I was planning to go get cat food/litter today, but that just didn't happen... At least now that I'm using Wanderer, my shoulder doesn't hurt when I use the computer, though. :-)

I've gone through all of Passing For Normal now, and I can see the parallels, now. I was particularly unnerved when she explained her problems dealing with getting things done during school, particularly not taking notes and just absorbing as much as possible (in my case, quite a bit) by half-listening to lecture. Other aspects, like the father attacking her for his own traits, I couldn't quite grasp, because I am lucky enough that my own same-spectrum father is very supportive and taught me a lot about getting on in the world with our neurological oddities. :-)

The main thing I objected to, all the way to the end, was the lack of acceptance for people that aren't totally "normal." That is, she openly advocates behavioral therapy rather than acceptance, even to the point that she won't accept her friend with Tourette's. She also is clearly in favor of medicating herself (or others with differences) to the point that they're so dulled down that they fall asleep all the time, thus reducing the behaviors simply by tiring the people out too much to perform them! Creepy... Seems to me they'd all be happier if they just accepted themselves and got others to accept them as well.

Okay, I'm tired out again, I *hate* stress/anxiety... I need more sleep, but if I crash right now, I'll wake up at some bizarre hour and have to just sit there, not knowing what to do next until the sun comes up or until I take more Neurontin. :-p I need to go to the store tomorrow to get the things I failed to get today, so I'd better make sure I have enough sleep to get up early enough in the morning!

Posted by moggy at November 21, 2003 08:40 PM | TrackBack