I feel like screaming

Every time you leave the room
I can barely contain myself
It's all I can do to keep from
falling on my knees before you
I have been mastered,
I have been won
and totally unintentionally.
I doubt you really know.
I doubt you even have a clue
What you do to me
When you cross the room
When you smile at me
Every time I see it
Every time a little bit more
of my resolve melts away
and weakens me even further

We've talked it over
We've had a good chat
We've sorted things out
And here we are.
Is it actually done for you?
Does it hold any sort of finality now?
All it does for me is instill a feel of hopelessness
Whenever you start to send me on that track again

I don't know if I'm laughing or crying
And either way, I don't know why
I do know that I'm screaming
My chest is bursting
My lungs are straining to supply air
My heart is stressing to supply blood
And it comes over me
Every time you flash that smile,
Every time you laugh,
Every time you touch me,
Every time your eyes meet mine.

I'm jealous of stupid things
I'm obsessive over tiny matters
You do it and I let you
Just to see you move

I wonder what you think in your mind
Where are you now?
What have you decided?
How have you left things?
Are they nearly as unsorted as mine?
Do they sit in a loose collection in your head?
Do they get jumbled up each time we touch?
The looseness of it, the unknowing,
That's what kills me.