All poems © Derek J. Barbee.

Never Leaving
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So I made my mistakes
My careless mind not seeing
Even if one of of us fakes
The other doesn't quite seem to know
Was it me, was it you
You'll always be there, in my heart
And even if I'm not supposed to
I'll always remember it all.

More Than I Could
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I can say now, what I did
But I couldn't then, why not?
Were my emotions, so perfectly hid
That even you could not see them?
I tried to tell you how I felt,
I loved you more, more than I could
We can never play more than we are dealt
But you didn't want to even try.

Close to Someone
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I was close to someone
More than ever before
But it stopped
You closed the door
I could have tried
My emotions kept going
Did yours not?
A break in the flowing
River of Love
Pools of Grief
They all come together
Except for belief.

The Break
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Was that what killed it?
My lack of faith?
It wasn't of you
But it felt of a wraith
Dark and foreboding
Did it come to you?
Did you see bad?
Do you hate me, too?
I don't live your life
I don't believe the same
Yet I know you don't
Really care if it's just a game
You can believe it or not
I chose not
I'm gone, I'm out
Forgot the robot
I longed for you to understand
But you couldn't, not your fault
You never relented
You locked yourself up, inside a vault
I'm on the outside, I'm alone
But I can still smile at the fact
That you found someone else, close to home
Go ahead, but remember me.

Return to Pain
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Why do I still care?
What should it matter to me?
I still feel for what happened
I still care whether it was me
Everyone calls it a learning experience
I hate those people
Those who never even tried to experience
What it was I went through
But there, did they get to me?
It isn't a "trying" sort of thing I felt in me
I loved her, I truly did
And now what?

How Come?
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I really shouldn't do it
I shouldn't become one of the people
Constantly crying out at it, that it
Never was fair enough
It's not supposed to be,
I don't expect it to be,
And I never did.
Did you?

Help me.