Reassurance

In the middle of all this tension
      of all this strain
      of all this discomfort
      of all this pain
I have to set down some lines.

I mustered my courage,
I opened the door,
I called to him,
Didn't mention what for.
He came to me,
With look of surprise,
He probably suspected,
I'd just tell him lies.

I stood there and told him
What I didn't want to do
I told him of her
      of me, of you
I didn't say it all,
I doubted I could.
I knew I needed to,
I knew I should.
But I said what I felt,
And I said what he meant to me,
I cherished our friendship,
I told him that openly.

He knew about her
He knew about us
I didn't know how much
It wasn't openly discussed.
But I finally spoke of it,
I confronted him,
I wanted to strengthen my hopes,
All so sickly and thin.

I half expected him to scowl,
To turn and leave me in his past,
Instead he hugged me,
And all I could do was laugh.