shatter

It's shattering when you realize
That someone isn't who you thought
It's hopeless when you realize
That they never will be
A part of my esteem
Built around false knowledge
Something that I assumed
And wished was correct
Why can't you?
Why can't you be my higher figure?
Someone that I could look upon and say:
"Yeah. It's sort of like that."
I come to the realization
That when you really don't know
It can be anything you want it to be
They can be anything you want them to be
An absent goddess
That was never questioned
Because I never had any reason to
And I was better off in deluding myself
But now I can't
Now I know
And I wish I didn't.